Low Point_: Nervous Tension

The baby is due now in less than 1 month. I won't go into details but I am a nervous wreck, it is funny how nervous panic slowly rises up behind you like a wave. It was only when I sat and thought about it did I manage to put my finger on the problem. I am scared that something bad will happen to Penny and the new baby. It started when Dad was going into our family history and he his mother - a cotton factory worker - died in child birth. Not this fault. Anyway... Can't type now, taxi driver keeps talking to me. Going to amsterdam again, hope the baby doesn't come :)